Baby Jesse has left us..

That is how I feel it, he has just left us, without warning, he just left... let me tell you how it happened... We were quite concerned about Eunice, the second of our three premature baby's. last night several of us were busy with her for some hours. This morning I tried to contact our senior paediatrician doctor, I couldn't reach her, so I just drove to the hospital, to the HIV clinic and asked one of the two doctors if she please could come with me to see our premature baby's. She did and also her colleague came. We explained our worries and they took a lot of time and consulting to give us advice how to handle Eunice.Then I asked them if they also could asses Jesse, because he also started to have problems with his abdomen and his breathing had changed a bit. I picked Jesse out of his little tent and discovered I had a dead baby in my hands!!! He just left us while we had been talking. We had heard no sound, no struggle, nothing...

We were so shocked, we could not believe it, we did not expect this, we worried about Eunice and of course we knew that also Jesse and Evalyn were still very vulnerable, but to die, no that was too much. I brought the two doctors back to Soroti hospital and came back to Amecet. Tears were flowing, we had invested so much already in this little boy, he had gained so much... he came in as a 780 gram little baby and now he died as a 1170 gram cute little boy. We didn't understand, what had happened? We felt so sad, we had so much hope for this little fellow, we had been so happy when he reached the 1 kg weight. Suddenly everything had changed.

We had tell the other children, they wanted to come in and see Jesse and say goodbye to him. And here you see some of them sitting with the little Jesse, he was laying on the little table and they just touch him and talk to him. Helen told me that Jesse is now with Jesus and that it was only his body that was there, he was now okay and he had no more pain. And that it just how it is!!!! I learn from the simplicity of the children, it comforts me and helps me to see it like they do. 

The mother came and she wanted to take the body of Jesse to her family in the village. We talked with her and prayed with her. She left, together with a friend who was going to drive her home.

And we?? We were busy with Eunice, as you can see on the picture above, she has still a long way to go and she still needs many prayers. Please pray for her, that she will live, please pray also for us, the staff, it was a emotional day.