No more pain for John Michel..

This morning I wrote that we were worried about John Michel. He was this morning too weak to walk. Janneke and I carried him to the neighbour clinic for the ultra sound. Not much came out of that, mostly that he had ascites, water in his tummy. He was very weak, the doctor saw him and he was also very concerned. We did check his sugar level in his blood, it was very low, so we had to give him dextro intra venous. And blood transfusion  We asked the doctor if they could check his blood group  and request the hospital to give it to us, so that we did not have to carry him around too much. John Michel had a lot of pain in his abdomen. Our plan worked out and I got the blood in the hospital and we gave half of it, the other 200 ml we planned to give tomorrow. His blood sugar level went down again, so again we had to give dextro IV. After 2 hours it was down again, and again we had to give dextro by IV. All the time he had diarrhoea and he was in pain. He was also very weak. At 6.15 pm Janneke was with him, when he suddenly stopped breathing. Janneke and I tried to reanimate him, but it was in vain.This happened all in our living room, the other children and staff were eating around the table and we were at the other side of the room working on John Michel. It was so shocking, to us, even he was so sick, we didn't expected this. We carried him to the medicine room and knew he was gone. I feel angry, shocked, sad and confused. John Michel was only with us for 3 days, he walked in on his own legs! I feel so bad for his grandmother, who loved him. Simon and Elias went to the village to talk to her, they are not back yet, but I know that the news will really shock her. I know that we did all we could, Janneke was with him the whole day, we tried every thing, but still in vain. We don't know what caused his death and we are a bit frustrated and empty. We talked with the other children who saw all that happened and we prayed together. John Michel is at peace, no more pain, no more injections and no more tears for him.